life

the last couple of days have been tough ones.
while having friends can be the best thing in the world; maintaining a good friendship can be the hardest. I guess that's true of most things on earth.

I am swamped with school work. i definitly appreciate the chance to be in school.
i'm not sure i would if i did not have children. kids really make ya see things from a different perspective.

In life there are times when you wish you could go back. undo a decision a choice.
we all know that's not a possiblility - but still the thought is there.

I feel like a death has occurred. yet it is harder than a death because i still see and know. the senses are still there.
hurting someone you greatly care about is the worst feeling.

one time a wise person said that loving someone meant caring about them so much that even if they did something terribly, horribley aweful it wouldnt change your love for them. I guess that's true unconditional love.

maybe that is something only God is really capable of.
some say "Unconditional love is a myth. That is because humans are naturally self-biased and the human heart is so deceitful that one can fool himself into thinking that he is loving unconditionally, when in fact he has all kinds of conditions."