Marriage is s weird thing. Being so close to a person can be great,
yet not knowing when to be truly 100% honest is another thing.
I wonder if a person can really be true.
It is possible- I’m sure.
I love my kids. I love my husband.
I hope that that I’m being a good mother and wife. How can you really know?

change is never easy

Re-defining a friendship is a hard thing to do. Figuring out what is best for everyone involved can be difficult. Change is not all that enjoyable at times.
Going from close to casual is never comfortable is guess.

I feel like a bomb just blewup in my face - one that's been in my life for a while but i didn't know it. I hate myself ...cause I feel that i have trusted people I should have never trusted. I think that decisions I have made have somehow destroyed trust and authenticity of my relationships.
I hate that my husband is not happy. It's all a spiritual battle and I pray it will be over soon. I hate the feeling that things will not be like they used to that I will some how loose a friend or loose other things that are important to me.
I dont think that i cant win.
I hope that things can go back to the time it was simple. friendship was easy, fun and real.

lately I have this desire to find and contact (via e-mail) friends from high school. I have looked up some names on google, but havent come up with anything yet. we might get ot go camping this weekend! I hope it works out - cause the kidsare not feeling well.

today is monday

the start of a new week. I plan to get a lot accomplished this week. hopefully get some resumes in the hands of future internship/employers.
the end of last week was quite disrupted by social services. Caleb's school reported his to be abused -due to paddle mark on his butt. so i had to take him to the hospital and go through all that entailed. That was no fun and pt me in a bad mood. My weekend was kinda boring, but not all too bad.

ben stein speaks the truth

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Hi

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Hi from caleb

Sunday we all went out to play softball it was a lot of fun. I haven't played in so long. it was fun.
Don & I had good long discussions on sunday about US. I think we resolved some tension that was building. My little sister, Amy, is struggling with people giving her a rough time at school and ball - mainly because she is a moral person. I hope that next year she can go to a Christian college so that she will not feel the pressure to do wrong.

Hurricane Katrina's Victims

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Never thought i'D see gas prices this high. Sad day.